5 days ago we were supposed to have traveled - after a full summer of great projects, of lots of volunteers, and running 24/7. 5 days ago we were supposed to have arrived in the U.S. to attend a family reunion on one side, and then a week vacation with other side. We were to have packed for a 3 month sabbatical - with plans of playing, teaching our kids U.S. culture, visit some National Parks, resting, and seeing Sigel before he heads to Germany for 3 years. Covid's changed all that.
We are not the only ones with losses - everyone has suffered losses from this unexpected pandemic. We have been grieving our losses, while at the same time, pushing through and choosing to be ok (what's the option?). We were all disappointed when we decided we were cancelling the trip, and again when our travel day came and went.
There's an odd place that missionaries find themselves - stuck between knowing that 'we have it really rough' compared to life in the US and also knowing that 'we have it really great' compared to our neighbors here in Honduras. On one side I can completely justify feeling sorry for myself, and yet when I stop and truly choose to see truth - I have it great. I have a safe home, income, ((thanks supporters for your faithfulness!)), ability to buy food and medicine, and a healthy family. (oh and I'm grateful for our trampoline and backyard too :) . My neighbors, don't have those pleasures of basic needs met. So instead of just grief, I'm choose thankfulness. Thankful to be in a position to bless.
As we continue to be under strict restrictions of quarantine (day 140?), most day I'm finding a peace to be ok. And sometimes I"m not ok. But I'm choosing to ride the waves of emotions while clinging to God as my rock - where all of my hope comes from.
2 of our chickens arrived a a gift from someone over a mile away - as a thank you for all the food EA has been giving out, a young boy delivered these two chickens at 6:30am one morning - they were tied up in a black bag.
Check out our latest EA video that explains how we're helping during a crisis: How it's done: Relief